hari ke-2 . celik

msj dr akak aku, intan

``perdarahan dah berhenti.doctor xbuat operation.

tengok ok. skrg doctor dah berhenti bagi ubat tido.

nak tgk ble abah dah sedar

klu xsedar doctor kate mungkin banyak sel dalam otak mati sebab mase dy xsedar ari tu,

kiter lambat bawak dy pg hospital. so oxygen xder ``

tadi aku jage dy, bru da leh celik mate..aku suroh dy bukak mate besa2

tp sepet2 je mate dy..

harap esk lebeh baik.amen~

koma

jam 7.45mlm smlm selepas berbuka pose, ambulans dtg ke rumah

abah aku tenat lain dari biase. maksudnye, kali ni maken teruk sakitnye..

smpi hospital, trus masuk zon kritikal

jam 11mlm, jumpe doctor yg rawat abah..

kene mara !

`` kan dah ckp jgn cucuk lagi insulin tu. korg ni kenapa ha? xphm ke?

berape ratus kali korg nk dy kuar masuk hospital ni?

korg x syg ke ayah korg buat dy tersekse mcm ni? ``

buat dy tersekse?!

tersentap hati aku sbg anak ble org ckp mcm tu kat aku..

jenoh aku jge dy..tp org boleh nilai aku mcm ni..

rase dri aku ni sgt bersalah..rase mcm anak derhake pon ade !

8.15pg hari ni

`` keadaan ayah awk skrg x stabil.dy xsedarkan diri. koma !

ader 2 sbb..

pertama : paru2 ayah awk kene jankitan kuman.

kedua : hypo.gula rendah.sgt rendah..bila guna rendah, sy risau oxygen xnaik ke otak

hal ini akan menyebabkan sel dlm otak ayah awak mungkin mati.

sila maklumkan pada keluarga ya``

dugaan..ya Allah, beri lah kekuatan pada aku yg tgh pk mcm2 ni !

amen~

alamanda - taman warisan - s.a

smlm 1 hari suntuk kuar

tonton vampire suck..ha2..aku sorg je yg gelak dalam wayang

pastu pg buke pose kat taman warisan putrajaya..

rm33..mcm haramje makanan.xsedap xkenyang menyesal pon ader

baik makan kat mamak.kenyang lagi sedap

pastu pegi uptown shah alam

sejam lebeh bejalan, jumpe plak wallet murah rm10..beli lah nk ganti wallet lame

tgh2 sesak, jumpe plak kwn lame zaed..huru hare lepak dgn dy..steady lah zaed..

kite xder org jage..

blik umah dlm pkol 3pagi

asalnye kene bgn pagi.

ader hal..tp pkol 11.30 jgk bgn..

hm..

kokak

so bad

Yeah..

Haha..you feel that baby?

Yeah, I feel it too.

Damn.

You know..i'm so glad we could spend this time together

See, not as crazy as you thought I was am i?

Heh..

I'm the American dream! I'm the definition of white trash balling,

I'm right back on 'em, with the

(*scratches*) I can't call it

Same shit, different toilet, oh you got a nice ass darlin'!

Can't wait to get you into my Benz, take you for a spin

What you mean we aint fuckin', you take me for a friend?

Let me tell you the whole story of Shady's origin

You'll be sorry if you slam my Mercedes door again!

Now, it all started with my father

I must have got my pimping genes from him, the way he left my mama

I'm a rolling stone just like him, word to Johnny Trauma (??)

Keep my entourage with me, baby i'll make a promise

There aint nobody as bomb as, me i'm as calm as

The breeze, i'm the bees knees, his legs and his arms i'm a

S-superstar, girl, i'm ready for you mama!

Why you think the only thing I got on is my pyjamas?

So bad

So good that i'm so bad

Guarantee i'll be the greatest thing you ever had

Cause you aint never met nobody like me

And you aint gonna want no-fucking-body else at that..

I'm equivalent to a shot of Cuevo, first I kiss your navel

Work my way down, baby you can lay down on the table

But you may wanna find something more stable

I told you I aint fooling from the gate, this aint the first day of april!

But thank you for staying April, i'ma make you learn

To appreciate me, differentiate me

From these phoney, little fishy and sissy fake G's

Skip over the huggy-bear and all the kissyface, please

Initiate phase three! Missy now service me

Take another shot of Jager, shake it so nervously

Take your time baby, ooh you're the bomb baby!

Ooh you're doing that even better than your mom lady!

I told you i'm Shady, you didn't listen now, did you?

Relax woman, you know that i'm only kidding with you

Got a twisted sense of humour, it's warped, but I didn't hit you

I think you're finally starting to get the picture, i'm..

So bad

So good that i'm so bad

Guarantee i'll be the greatest thing you ever had

Cause you aint never met nobody like me

And you aint gonna want no-fucking-body else at that..

Dynamite, dynamite, dynamite, so!

Dynamite, dynamite, dynamite, so!

I can hold you in the morning

But in the evening I gotta go..

'cause i'm on to the next girl,

And the next girl I kinda like, oh, oh, oh..!

I got you caught up in the rapture

Make you recapture the feelings you had for your last boyfriend before he slapped you

You never wanted someone so bad you're sweating

But if i'm what you wanted, why'd you panic when I grabbed you?

Girl don't be so frantic i'm just a hopeless romantic

Don't try to fight the feeling of something that's organic

You can't ignore it, so don't just stand before it

Just drop them panties to the floor, let's get to camcordin'

Damn shorty, I told you this was bound to happen

Soon as you wrote your number on a napkin I was bound to work a number on your back and

Throw your spine out of alignment

My love has got you so blinded you couldn't pick Amy Winehouse out of a lineup

So stop with the snoring, pick your pint up

Let's get the pineapple schnapps going, no one'll knock cause i'ma hang a sign up

Saying "Don't Disturb", shorty i'm so superb

I say the right things, don't I spit the dopest words?

So bad

So good that i'm so bad

Guarantee i'll be the greatest thing you ever had

Cause you aint never met nobody like me

And you aint gonna want no-fucking-body else at that..

Dynamite, dynamite, dynamite, so!

Dynamite, dynamite, dynamite, so!

I can hold you in the morning

But in the evening I gotta go..

'cause i'm on to the next girl,

And the next girl I kinda like, oh, oh, oh..!

So bad

So good that i'm so bad

Guarantee i'll be the greatest thing you ever had

Cause you aint never met nobody like me

And you aint gonna want no-fucking-body else at that..

fikir

kadang terfikir sejenak..

fikirkan naseb diri..

tah ape lah naseb diri aku ni..

mase akan datang..

1 thn akan datang

5 tahun akan datang

10 tahun akan datang

kalau maseh bernafas

..

rehat sebentar

pagi smlm aku bgn dlm pkol 10 pg..

tgk ayh aku ok..

tghri aku masuk mcd blikan bubur..

tp dy x mkn..kene hypo ( gula dlm bdn rendah )

tros aku bwk dy pg hospital..

dr pkol 2 smpi 10 mlm aku tunggu..sgt penat..

ble dah dy masuk wad, aku blik umah

belom sempat aku baring nk berehat, hospital call sroh dtg..

aku pon dtg lah..redah hujan lebat

borak2, aku plak yg kene mara dgn doc..hmm

blik umah terus tdo.. pkol 2 ptg td br bgn..

ni br dpt rehat..tenangkan fikiran yg slame ni kusut..

mcm2 nk pk..

dan esok aku terus kusut

srabot :)

ruang dan mase

hari ni 1 ramadhan..

hari pertama puase dan hari ni jgk aku terpakse terima kehendak dy

` xpayah berhubung buat mase skrg ye`

mungkin dy xleh trime aku mcm ni..

mmg aku berubah

aku berubah ader sbb

sbb keluarge

sbb diri sndiri

dy ckp dy nk phm aku..

tp mungkin dy xmampu..

aku sedar aku silap..sakitkan ati dy..

tp aku cube pujuk diri aku blik

aku cube kembali pada yg dulu..itu yg dy harap2kan..

tapi aku gagal..mungkin dy xnampak..xperlah..

kali ni..dy yg minta..aku terpakse terime..

tp aku igt kate2 dy mlm kelmarin..

harap dy igt kate2 dy..

nway..

sy syg awk